A Long Time for Growth
In this final push of Smutathon 2019, I’m admittedly very exhausted. I’ve only slept 4-5 hours on most nights for the past couple of weeks because I’ve been so excited and anxious for everyone...
Category: Personal story
Unlearning Sex Negativity by Coffee & Kink
I’ve been meaning to write this piece for a long time. So today for Smutathon seems like as good a time as any! I need to start by admitting something that doesn’t make me...
The Way Things Are
Without wanting to sound like a teenager, Holly is hands down the coolest person I’ve ever met. Although it’s hard not to sound like a teenager when that is how I feel when I’m...
Confessions of a Smutathoner
Smut Queen’s Log — Bellesa HQ — 28 Smuttember, 2019 It’s been 6 months since I was sat— [Oh dear lord, the Britishness is already rubbing off on me. Ahem. Let’s try that again.]...
Oops, I think I accidentally made PIV sex into a big deal
Reading a casual-fuck-partner’s old texts on a Smutathon wank break (less fun than a Smutathon fuck break, but more practical for a day of writing in the library) left me thinking about his dick....
Late, for (what I wish was) a very important date
You are running late. I have ordered a cup of tea. Usually lateness bothers me, but to me you can do no wrong. Evidently, or I wouldn’t still be here. I think about your...
I want to fuck you like I hate you
I hate you. I want to tell you that you’ve hurt me and remind you of how much you’ve hurt me. I imagine that I’ll get frustrated and cry, and before I know it...
Letting Go Is Not Forgiveness by Coffee & Kink
“You have thrown it all away, Stand back, watch it burn – Just watch it all burn.” (“First Burn” – Lin Manuel Miranda) Close to a decade ago, two people I trusted hurt me...
The devil is in the detail…
Life is not a plot; it’s in the details. – Jodi Picoult, Vanishing Acts When I’m wanking, my fantasies are usually about the broad strokes, if you’ll excuse the pun – falling through a...
Would you like to sit?
I don’t really like it when people go down on me. When I used to have my blog, I wrote a few posts about my lack of confidence with how my vulva looks, based...